Dream Catch Me

Yesterday, I realized I am gradating. Today, I think I am never going to leave this place. Tomorrow, I will be gone.

When I think of what University has meant to me, I can recall the sleepless nights, the parties with friends, and of course the satisfaction of a job well done. Yet, it was about growth and challenge, both self-resilience and collaboration. I am proud of where I have come, and I know where ever I go, I am internally equipped to kick some ass. This is not arrogant, its confidence.

I may not know where I am going next after Philmont, but I know not to worry.

I will miss this 'place', this 'time', but yet don't know if I will ever recover from it. For there is pain in college too. Work is never easy and for me, never complete.

My only solace is in the music I put on my head, and regretfully the greatest joys will only come from within my heart.

This is a time for celebration, not remorse.

-I want to go back to Philmont
Where the old Rayado Flows
Where the rain comes a seep'n
in the tent where your a sleep'n
and the water says 'Hello'

I want to hike some more,
the canyon floor,
from scribbles to old camp...

With my back pack a squeek'n
my back sweat a reak'n
and my legs begin to cramp:

OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

I want hike again
with such great men
who made those famous treks
From beaubian to porky
and cito to Car-Max.

to fear

I fear change.

Maybe its my make up
or
human nature.

Either way, I must be willing to embrace what comes at me. The challenges should inspire performance, the tribulations: humility, and the accolades: gratitude.

Once again I applied to a firm in Jackson, Wyoming. I am in fear; I don't want to move out of Detroit.

Is this fear, or do I really to live here, in my comfortable life. Friends, some family, and essentially my whole life, and especialy the last five years.

I have become connected here. I have worked else where, traveled abroad, but I still wish to come home.

Why?

The familiarity. The inability to detach.
or is it none of these.

Maybe what I have is that great.

Either way- I recognize this, I know that I don't want change, but growth comes from challenge, which usually stems or becomes change.

Do I want to grow?

Yes.